Saturday, May 30, 2009

SURGEON..

i've always thought that being a surgeon is the coolest thing ever.
now i change my mind.haha
ok la.cool kowt di mata orang lain.. but ade ape dengan cool?!
i love learning about heart..i really do.it never failed to amaze me,everytime.
so before senior posting kat surgical,i thought.."eh,nak jadi cardiac surgeon la! macam besh je"..

until dah masuk cardiovascular-surgical posting, i think better jadi cardiologist la instead of cardiac surgeon.

like..kalau saye tibe2 suke neuro,i'll be neurologist instead of neuro-surgeon..
kalau suke paed, i'll be paediatrician instead of paed-surgeon. -->yang ni confirm saye tak kuat...sebab i love babies and kids..so emosi saye mudah sangat terusik kalau tengok kanak2 sakit,ape lagi kalau nak belah2 diorang.haha..belah2?? melebih la plak nad ni.lols. docs haruslah empathy! takleh sympathy!
dan seterusnye ... =p

why???
MY reasons are :

1. sebab surgeon lebih sesuai untuk lelaki, yang tak perlu uruskan rumah tangga sgt.. kalau perempuan, mesti la kene jaga makan minum husband,anak2,and so on.. surgeon busy gile kot, dah jadi specialist pon ade on-call.

2. surgeons adalah robot yang boleh berdiri and focus kepada bende kecik cenonet at the same time,dalam jangka waktu yang lama plak tu. i tak tahan la u..haha.

3. skill kene mantop abes. ok maybe bende tu boleh blajar time after time.. but i was born careless.thank u. kalau stakat jahit surface takpe,ni main ng bende2 yang fergile..erkk.. tremor2.

4. memang la surgeons ni highly paid but still, bayaran mahal sbb kerje nye memang susah, mentally and physically. banyak je dept yang lain bayaran same but only memerlukan otak untuk berfikir. ok.. yang ni tak penting sgt ler.hehe

5. nak repeat lagi... memerlukan kekuatan fizikal yang luar biasa.haha


btw, tu my opinion for my own future je.
lain orang lain opinion and minat nye..
kalau nak buat list keuntungan jadi surgeon pon banyak jugak...


if ade la my girl friend yang berminat nak jadi surgeon..silekan. respek abes la kalau pompuan jadi surgeon,mesti gagah!
and..jangan marah lak ng post ni.hehe.saje je nak bagitau my opinions and why saye taknak pilih surgical as my future career.

but ape pon,saye redha..pasrah!

nak jadi cardiologist sgt2!!(doakan ye)
but belom senior posting kat internal medicine lagi... dulu mase junior posting macam dah suke sgt2,taktau la kalau dah on-call tibe2 tak suke pulak.haha.. nadhirah2,kalau asyik ngengade je,sampai bile taktau nak pilih yang mane. adeeehhh..


ok,sekian sudah bebelan pada hari ini,setalah berzaman tak update blog.


coming up next.... story pasal last week.. (my family datang surabaya!)

Thursday, May 21, 2009

my very first on-call in surgical dept.

i'd say.... I LOVE IT!!!!
although it was kinda tiring,sebab saye on-call kat Emergency Room..but i had so much fun!

"fun" as in i gain so much new experiences lor.. not fun watching all my patients suffering from the pain.

i stitched.. and tried the cross-incision..(why tried?? because i've never done it before.. thanks doc for letting me do it)

*but most of all,busy hantar Px pegi X-ray and CT-scan je..haha*

compared to ENT and any other dept, patients surgical la yang paling non-stop datang.. so penat sampai nk tercabut kaki.

i love practical way more than just theory.
whut an experience.

(ok...mule2 excited lagi kot..lame2 ntah la..kuikui)

"you will remember some of what u hear, much of what u read, more of what u see, and almost all of what u experience and understand fully"

Monday, May 18, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UMI!

happy birthday to my beloved umi who just turned 47 this year!!

may Allah bless u always.

i love u and i mish u


peeps,bedah is killing me laaaah!!
tadi balik pukul 5 petang.penat gile kot dari kul 7 sampai 5.
pastu tomorrow pulak ade bed-side teaching as early as 6am!!! means saye kene datang before that,emm...5.30 maybe. with A LOT of stuff to read. i slept for 2 hours just now. not bad la kan?...
cuak la besok ade prof.puruhito..*pengsan skejap*

tadi after class,tengah kepenatan yang amat sgt,tibe2 fren jerit (she was studying in the living room at that time)

"nad....acap datang"

ha?!biar betoll~
tibe2 datang tak bagitaw..
cuak jugak kowt2 ade hal penting.
*btw,die takde kredit =p ok,logic la klau tak bgtaw nk dtg.haha*

"kreeekkk~~" bunyi pintu dibukak.

nampak la si dia.mak aih. die buat muke orang sakit,badan pon lemah longlai.
actually,dari smalam die kne diarrhea.i was busy the whole day plus my batt went dead so tak sempat la nak call tanye khabar die.

die takot nak makan kat luar,plus takde duet tuuu..haha.. so saye masakkan la bubur instant and telur.
pastu fren offer check suhu because fren ade thermometer! fren serba lengkap ok kawan2.haha.
it was 38 if i'm not mistaken.

alaaaa...ciyan awak demam.
sempat la kompres few times.tapi penat tetap penat,pastu saye tertido kot,sedar2 saye dah tido dalam bilik sendiri.haha.hampeh punye gf.
fren la kot yang melayan die. thanks housemate! =p

get well soon dear!!!

baru je smalam mrajuk2 ng awk,ttbe awk dh sakit.yela2,takmo majop dah~ cowiiii~

p/s : berhati-hati lah dalam memilih makanan!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

NEXT POSTING = SURGICAL!!

fuh~ cant believe i just finished 3 postings ; ENT,radiology,pharmacy

all went well (considering that i'm still alive.haha)
i think i'm getting more comfortable and familiar being a dokter muda.

but it's just the beginning,still.haha

cute~

next station = SURGICAL!!!

i believe it's the scariest station,probably for all medical students!
the only infomations about surgery that i've heard so far are most likely would be the reasons for me to have tachycardia. dup dap dup dap.

-very strict doctors
-classes as early as 6.30am
-wise and killer professors ---> this is a nightmare! especially for final oral exams T.T
-on calls at least 3 times a week
-A LOT of wards..
-countless books to read.

wish me luck!

nway,my ultimate dream career is actually a cardiac surgeon because i'm sooo into cardiology!
fell in love with it while learning internal medicine last year,with the help of Dr. Diah of coz =p
but i guess it'll stay as a dream.i dont think it suits me.besides,i dont want a busy life.kecian future husband.haha.ok,gatal disitu.


back to surgery, there are 9 departments in surgical which are : (if i'm not mistaken lah)

-paediatry surgery
-digestif
-head and neck
-thorax and cardiovascular
-oncology
-plastic
-neuro
-ortho and traumatology
-urology

my very first department will be thorax and cardiovascular.

mood : scared,excited,anxious,curios,scared,scared,scared!

happy ending..

dear friends...

sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending,
we don't learn how to read the signs,
how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't...
maybe the happy ending doesn't include a wonderful guy,

maybe it's you..own your own..
picking up the pieces and starting over..

frame yourself for something better in the future.
maybe the happy ending is just moving on.


happy endings for everyone!

Friday, May 15, 2009

BRAINLESS AS*HOL*

dear mr yang bawak motor merah.
kite bagi name die Mr merah ok.


ok here i go..

dear Mr M,
u must have lost ur brains or maybe u were born brainless.
i'm sorry for your lost but that's not an excuse for u to do any sexual harassment,u jerk.
it was so not cool.i wonder what kinda input did u get from doing that.
cant u even think?ok i forgot u're brainless.

a schmuck like u deserves some bitchy-slaps,
deserves to be infected with H1V1 virus a.k.a swine flu,
to get hit by a lori sampah and got struck by lightning afterwards.

ouh wait..u dont die yet...not so easy as*hol*.

then suddenly u smell so good (because of the burning sampah on ur body)
it attracts semuts..
and the semuts will eat each and every part of u,
from the skin to the very deepest part of ur bones.
bang! u die!
with holes all over ur body.

the end.



bee-dee readers...
i hate this country..
seriously i never thought i'm goin to be a victim of this mentally-ill behavior (sexual harassmenting)
and i wasn't walking alone.
i was with arina and frenny for god's sake!
and the narrow road was quite busy,i could've kicked his bike..
but i was soooo numb that i didn't react.
arina and i..we were the victim.
i'm not going to tell u the details..
but plz,especially girls..plz be careful..

damn lah!!
JIJIKKKK!!!!!!

p/s : i'm freaking traumatised!!!



='(

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

DEAR BIHA~

IT'S THE GREATEST SURPRISE EVER SIS!!

cerita nye begini..
last Wednesday,i had a VERY bad day.. with exam coming up tomorrow pulak tu(darn!)
stress ok blajar pharmacy.
dgn taktau oral exam dapat ng sape.
dah la docs pharmacy semua momok ( as in susah nak pass kan org)
aiseh..melencong plak..


after class saye balik rumah,
dengan stress yang dah nak sampai tahap maximal.
...sampai rumah...
fren tak balik lagi,so saye layan la duk dalam bilik sorang2.
bile fren balik,we lepak2 kat depan TV.

suddenly fren cakap.

"eh nad.. ni nad punye"

while handing me a giant envelope.
"ha? sape lak post ni?"

so i look at the envelope and i saw an address.

and it's from india.

it's from my sis.



my beloved sis,biha.....


dalam tu ade 2 shawls..
satu size biase (untuk buat tudung)
satu yang besar --> patolla! hehe.baru taw name die
ade 1 t-shirt hard rock
ade postcard,
and.... a BIRTHDAY CARD yang comel sgt2 =)


dear sis.. THANKS a lot dear.. i love u.
i love u when u were a baby,

i love u when we were kids,

i love u now,
and i'm gonna love u forever.


biha and her BFFs


+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++


balekambang pics!

my BFFs!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

TWINS~


i love babies and kids,especially twins.
and yes,i've always wanted to have twins. sangat cute okey twins. it's exciting how they can easily pretend to be one another, and ask people " c'mon,which is which?"

pastu as for their mom, mesti best..belikan bende yang same, baju same, botol susu same, semua lah. and they tend to have different personalities. sorang ayu,sorang ganas sket. sorang macho, sorang lagi manja pulak.hehe.
pasal susah nak jaga tu lain cite la. i know, nak jaga anak sorang pon susah..ni,double the trouble lah kan.hehe

it's just my dream anyway.

i told my mum about my dream of having twins.
and my cytogenetic-pathologist umi said.. it's almost impossible for a women with no twins in her family history to have twins. it's all about genetics,and i don't have any twins in my family,so... hurm.


i was kinda frustrated.haha.
plz jgn igt saye gatal nak kawen.i just cant wait to have my own babies =)


but then...
today,i remember something! something that my umi forgot!something that brings back my hope.


i remember umi's story about my younger sister,nabihah. she had a twin, but unfortunately 'it' didn't make it. it was in the 1st trimester when my mom suddenly had a massive bleeding,luckily nabihah survived =) (thank u allah)

it was like ages since my mom told me about that.
but i'm sure of it!

I HAVE IT!

(continuing my dream)

=)

Sunday, May 10, 2009

LOVE is in the air



They say that the bond of love is knitted in the sky,
and then sent to the earth for the people…
I say that it is made right here on the surface
when your hand kisses mine,
when your soul touches mine,
and absorbs it somewhere in the depth of your tenderness.

It’s your love that is in the air…
it has softened the sky to lose its glare…




" every inch, every corner of my heart and forever you'll be a part " - Rafel

♥ I'M CRAVING FOR ♥ :

♥ lots of ice creams
♥ J.CO's crunchy crunchy donuts
♥ A&W waffle
♥ J.CO's J.cool yogurt ice-cream ---> strawberry,orange and longan
♥ Caramel Popcorn
♥ Izzi's choco melt
♥ blueberry cheese cake
♥ chocolate cake



this is what i do best especially when stress takes over



ok that's not me,obviously


"i CRAVE, i HUNT, i EAT"


STRESS!

Saturday, May 09, 2009

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
to all wonderful mothers in this world

I TURN TO YOU

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got..

For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.

When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night
For a shield from the storm,

For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.

For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...

For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
I turn to you...



Ilunihayati Ibrahim,my umi, without whom i wouldn't even exist.
my umi my shield, my friend, my strength,the most wonderful mom in the whole wide world.

I HEART U
thanks for everything


Wednesday, May 06, 2009

IKI PIRO???

hikhik.. title nak pakai bahase jawa,takleh blah towl.
tapi ape salahnye,boleh la korang blaja bahase jawa dr saye kan..

piro iki or iki piro = ini berapa?

ok cukup la tu.taktau nak ajar bahasa jawa lain (ketandusan idea). dah duk kat jawa almost 4 tahun pon tak fasih2 lagi bahase jhowo. ya opooo arek iki!





bee-dee help me.
pharmacy posting is killing me.
today's my 4th day in pharmacy and i still have absolutely NO CLUE about it.
i'm very much confused!
where should i start? which one should i focus on more?

there're so many medicines that need to be remembered,along with their doses,pharmacodynamics and pharmacokinetics.
and guess what, the final is on next thursday ( which is 7 days from now). somebody shoot me,plz!

seriously, 2 weeks for pharmacy is not enough and a MAJOR torture for us students ok. sorry to say,it even would ruin the quality of the 'products' from UNAIR. hellooo... u're producing doctors here! we need to be very well-equipped.
i think UNAIR should re-think about this whole KBK thingy..

*besides,UNAIR is well-known as one of the best universities, produces the best doctors, linked to the most complete teaching hospital in Indonesia.
i just hope that they know all of the risks.*

p/s : *this is something that i rarely do.haha.UNAIR should gimme credits for this.haha.

Saturday, May 02, 2009

the trust.......

........IS FADING AWAY.




i don't know if i should hang on anymore.

Friday, May 01, 2009

SWINE FLU

the latest 2009 flu OUTBREAK!
it's the spread of a new strain of influenza virus.

p/s : i seriously think viruses are so smart, they always come out with new strains.
can u imagine..punye la susah we create antibiotics,the viruses dgn senang hati boleh create another strains yang resistant terhadap antibiotics tersebut.they're so clever ok.


about the latest flu outbreak,it's an apparent reassortment of 4 strains of influenza A virus subtype H1N1.
Analysis at the United States CDC found the 4 component strains as
1 endemic in humans, 1 in birds and 2 in pigs(swine).

so it's called "swine flu" due to it predominantly containing swine strains.hahaha.why not "pig flu"?

other names are H1N1 influenza, 2009 H1N1 flu, Mexican flu, swine-origin flu.
but WHO for Animal Health proposed the name North American Influenza because this new strain and its entirety has not been found in pigs.

ciyan piggies..

so how this new disease spreads?

- direct contact with pigs
- human-to-human! just like common cold

*

and the symptoms are :

copied from wikipedia (^.^)v



WHO and CDC are concerned that this outbreak may become a pandemic,for the following reasons :

1. new strain

the virus is a new strain of influenza, from which human populations have not been vaccinated or naturally immunized.

2. wide spread human transmission

the strain was confirmed to have been transmitted between humans. omg that's so easy and scary!
the bird flu(that peaked in 2006) which killed thousands of people pon almost entirely from direct contact between humans and birds.
ape lagi klau human-to-human transmission?

3. virulence

the reported death from the illness have primarily been young,healthy adults!
of course it produces the worst symptoms in the children,elderly and others with weaker immune systems.

4. Lack of Data

many crucial factors are still largely unknown such as transmission rates and patterns (epidermicity) and effectiveness of current influenza treatments combined with the innate unpredectability of influenza strains, means that reliable forcasts can't be made.





however, some scientists believed that this strain was unlikely to cause as many fatalities as earlier pandemics.

just be careful people.


p/s : hahaha..so IKM(public health).. hehe.posting public health saye in about 2 months.waaa...taknak!